Chapter 12

It was on. Then i hear bang,bang,bang..Lights out ,party over. Everybody scattered like roaches at 3am.. The crew and I jumped in about three different cars and we were out. We rode out to the bricks to see Our Dude. He hooked my man T up with this big ass tech. We then headed to camden, where we heard "That Dude" from the other side lived. My man T was about to wet the crib up but i turned around and there was a cop coming towards us. I hollered to my man to put that thing away. He tucked it, and we started walking back to the cars. It did'nt look like anybody was there anyway. Some young dude that rode with somebody didnt have a shirt on, so the cop stopped. He asked our names, where we were going , and where we were headed. The first person said we were looking for our friends party, so everyone followed suit. He let us walk. I guess he figured he couldnt catch us all. On our way back in town, somebody said that there was a guy that we knew that was with the other side. So we decided to pay him a little visit. Nobody was home. As we proceed to get back in the car all you hear is bang,bang, bang. My man T done lit the side of this crib up. Everybody jumped in their rides and we were out. We sat out whatcoat, on the steps of 950 until about 3 or 4 am. Everybody went their seperate ways. The next day i went to the sale to get some cd's and there was this brown-skin lady walking on the other side. I couldnt really see what she looked like so i went over and got behind her. I could see she was short, and had a cute shape. I could also see rings on her finger. Yeah that finger. At first i started to go the other way but i walked up behind her and said hello. She turned around and to my pleasant surprise she was really cute. She had the most beautiful smile. I asked her name and she told me. I asked if could call her, so she gave me her number. I gave her my number and we talked for a minute. I said goodbye and she smiled and went her way. I ended up calling her later that day and she invited me to dinner a couple of nights later........TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 11

They took me to police station and fingerprinted me and took my mug shots. Then they took me to the magistrate court. The judge set my bail, and they took me to Smyrna prison. I had been here before, so it really wasnt a big deal. The difference this time was that i didnt know how long i was gonna be there. I went to court a couple of weeks later and I took a plea to six months in jail  and six months of work release. I did another couple of weeks in jail and due to over crowding i was sent to work release. The chic that i used to get high with started coming to pick me up for my home passes. I had a couple of months left and then i went on pass and never went back. I was on escape for about 2 months before i got tired of running and killing myself so i turned myself in. I was locked up for 2 months and then i was free again. I chilled for a few weeks and then right back to the same ol shyt. On the block once again. I was sitting out whatcoat on the steps of 930 and a white chevette pulls up. The drivers side door opens and out jumps one of my best friends of life, R. He started telling me how he was awol from the military and his wife was about to give birth. They were staying at a cheap hotel and he had a limited amount of money and needed to come up. I assured him that i would look out for him. We went out to mifflin meadows to see this dude i knew was getting it. I talked business with him for a few and he looked out. We left and went on New street. I broke the work down for him and showed him what was what. We stayed out til 2 or 3 in the morning and went our seperate ways. I didnt go on the block for about 8 days and went in town. I asked some dude if he had seen my dogs. He said they were at my man R's house. This was a little surprising since he was just in a hotel less than 2 weeks ago. I knocked on the door and one of my dogs opened the door. He welcomed me in and led me to the kitchen. My boy R was standing there cooking some coke up. I was kinda impressed because he had learned really quick. He started telling me how he had this connect in New York and he gave me a couple hundred dollars and an ounce of coke. It was on and poppin. We formed a squad that consisted of only R, myself and three of his cousins. We decided to try to take the block over. After a couple of weeks out there we began to notice that there was a few dudes that didnt want to respect the game, so we started beefin with these dudes. They were from D.C so we didnt want them on our block anyway. One night we were all out on the block and they were across the street. My boy A got a little uneasy about one of them looking over at us. So we did what was natural. We walked across the street and my boy A, asked if dude had a problem. This guy tried to front like he had some heart, so my boy stole the shit out of him.......TO B CONTINUED..Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 10

She saw me and immediately came over to where me and my man were standing. The first thing she says to me is " im sorry". She started explaining how that dude that snatched her up was her ex, and how he was nuts. I tried to act hard and completely ignored her. She kept trying to talk to me but the more she talked, the more i tuned her out. Then she said "come home with me". Now she had my attention..So we walked outside and talked for a few, and then i went inside to say peace to my dog. We left in her car and headed south. I didnt know her very well so i had no idea where we were headed. So i began to ask questions. I still remembered what my boy told me about her crazy ass ex. She said he didnt have keys to her crib and that i had nothing to worry about. I wasnt really worried but i did want to know where i was gonna b at for the night. We ended up at her crib about 45 minutes later and i was kinda impressed. I mean it wasnt her crib, but rather how she lived. She had a leather sectional, big screen t.v, giant aquarium, the works. But what impressed me more than anything was that her crib was spotless. Im talking white glove clean. We walked into her bedroom and she wanted to shower, so we did. We got comfortable and started talking about life. This chic was really cool. But what i liked more than anything was that she was smart. After staying up most of the night, we slept until about noon, and i woke up fresh as could be. We got dressed and i left in her car. It was a rental so i was just dropping it off for her. I got home later that afternoon and hung out at home for a little while. All the while thinking about the chic from last night. She was all in my head. I had to get myself together. So i called my homie and he came to pick me up. We went on the New street to hustle for a couple hours. After two or three hours on the block we went to the mall to get something to wear for the night. We got what we wanted and he dropped me off to get dressed. He picked up about an hour later and we were out. Off to the New square club. We were standing by the bar kickin it with a couple of friends and the door opened. There she was. I usually would have been a little turned off by seeing a woman this soon after spending the night before with her. But this time it was different. I went right over to her and we started talking. She was glad to see me too, so we left after a few minutes. We wnet to her house,but this time there was another car in her driveway. She said her brother was there and she wanted me to meet him. We went in and there was one guy at the stove, cooking coke, and another dude sitting at the table. She introduced me to her brother and the other dude. They were cool, and we started talking business. We decided to go in business together. Since what he was paying for his i could get cheaper and still make some dough. I kicked with them for a couple months and shit got a little hot on there end so we chilled. I went back to K.j and the boys out to "the Bricks". I got some work and proceeded to the block. I was on "the strip" and started gettin it.I went in the club, got a drink, and chilled for a minute. I was outside for about 5 minutes and this white truck pulled up. There was a white guy, and a white chic inside. Everybody that was hustling ran up to the truck. So my first thought was that they must be cool. Everybody must know them. I walked up to the truck and showed them some big pieces. The white chic said i want yours. I handed her the 20 piece of rock and she gave me $20. They drove off, and i started walking back towards the corner. As soon as i got to the corner there was a blue monte carlo coming to a stop but the doors were already open. It was the jump-out boys. Five Oh! I took off running. I threw the bottle of pieces i had on me. Then i stopped running, and this basterd threw me face first on the ground. They handcuffed me and put me in the back of a police car. I began to act hard. Talking shit to the cops, because i had already got rid of it. Or so i thought. The detective that threw me on the ground tapped on the window and there it was. The same bottle i thought i got rid of......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter9

Well we buried dad the next week, and i was glad to see that my dad had alot of friends , and people that cared about him in one way or the other. It was really rough for me for a little while. I had never really imagined life without my dad. GOD has a way of making sure we are able to accept the deaths of our loved ones. So now what? I knew that my mom, and my brother and sisters needed me. So i ran to the streets. Instead of being a good son, and a big brother, i ran. I stayed in the streets so i wouldnt have to face them. On Monday , the Old square club,Tuesday hustle day, Wednesday, Old square club, Thursday the Elks, Friday, The grill, Saturday, The Gun n Rod, Sunday New square club. In that order. Im hanging real tough with this dude that i was cool with. Every night, im going to one chics house, and he's going to one. This dude allegedly had like 22 kids or something. But i didnt judge him. He was my dog. One night i met this older chic ( like 12 years older) and she had a lot going for herself. So i did what was almost second nature. I took full advantage. I was living pretty cool for a smooth minute , but she soon saw thru me. So i kept it moving. I still would go HOLLA at her every now and then, but no longer on anything serious. Then i was at the old square club one night and i met this fly ass chic She had her name in her earrings, so i used that as a way to holla at her. She was feeling me anyway so everything was good. Until this dude came in the club and grabbed her up and drug her out the door. It happened so fast that they were out the door before i had time to react. I was about to go outside, but my man grabbed and told me not to mess with dude. Apparently he was known for shooting people. So i kept it moving and all n all it was a smooth night. The next night was Griil night so of course me and my boy were in the building. All of a sudden there she was. The same chic that got snatched from me the night before...........TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 8

I almost lost it, but a nurse said she would have someone come to take me downstairs. We waited by the elevator until a security guard came up. He led us down to the bottom floor. There was a big gray door with a thermometer on the outside that read 32 degrees. I told the security guard to get hi out of there before he froze. He just gave me this blank stare. I wasnt prepared for what i saw next. The guard pulled out a long steel stretcher with a black bag on it. He unzipped the bag and there was my dad. Dead. The next thing i know i was being helped up off the ground outside the hospitol. We drove to my house out whatcoat and i just went in and layed down next to my mom. We cried together for a while and i think i eventually fell asleep. When i woke up the next morning, i was hoping that i had just had a really bad dream, but by the mood of everyone else, i knew it was a reality. I had just lost my best friend in the world. For the next few days, my mother and i were trying to get all the funeral arrangements taken care of, and we had to go meet the insurance salesman, the funeral director and the pastor. While sitting in the funeral directors house, the insurance guy says he's sorry but he had made a mistake. Somehow he had overlooked something and now after my dad paying all his premiums on time for 7 or 8 years, they were only gonna pay for $600 of the total cost. I nearly lost my mind. Thank GOD for the pastor. He said the church would help with the rest. My mother and i didnt know what to say. We were speechless. ......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time..Peace n Love..

chapter 7

It didnt take me long to bounce back though.. We used to go to the dugout on Thursdays, and one week I met this dark skinned chic from Md. We became cool instantly..During this time my dad had goteen sick and he wasnt doing so well. His kidneys had begun to fail a few years earlier, but by this time he was in his last days. My dad and i werent just father and son. We were also very close friends. This was really taking a toll on me, and even worse having to see my mom lose the only man she had ever loved was really difficult. My new female friend from Md. had to go to a family reunion outta town and she was gonna be gone for 2 weeks. We had become close kinda fast and i kinda missed her. She was only gone one week though. She kinda missed me too, so she drove back a week early. This was the single worst night of my life. She had went out whatcoat looking for me, but someone told her i was at the hospitol. She came up to the floor where me and my family, and alot of friends from my moms church were crowded in the waiting area. We would go in to see dad two or three at a time. When my friend got there i was pleasantly surprised to see her, but you can imagine the mood i was in. I told my mom i would see her in the morning, and i went in to say goodnight to my dad. When i went in he looked a little different to me. Kinda weak and helpless. Not the 6'3" 250lbs strong willed man i had grown to love and respect. But i loved and respected him even more now. I kissed him on his forhead and said " I'll see you in the morning dad..I love you." And i walked out with my friend. We drove to her house in Md. but it was only 20 minutes from home. We chilled for a while, smoked a blunt and then at 12:15am the phone rang. It was my mom telling me my dad was gone. I was heartbroken like no one can ever imagine. My cousin and a family friend came over to pick me up. On the way home i asked the friend to take me to the hospitol. We went up to his room but he had already been moved...........TO B CONTINUED....Until next time...Peace n Love..

chapter 6

That was on Thursday. By Friday she called me and asked me to come spend the weekend with her. Of course i obliged!! We just chilled all weekend and i went home on Sunday. We kept in touch, and began a cool friendship. There was only one problem...She was married.. Her husband was in the military and they were kinda going thru something. So at that point i felt like i was just filling in until they got things worked out. Then just as soon as she entered my life, without warning she was gone. I was devastated.. After trying to contact her for a few months, i finally gave up and eventually got back on my grind. I hustled, played the field, and partied for a while, and then out of the blue i get this phone call. It was HER!!! I hung up on her twice, but she called back a third time and i decided to stop frontin and talk to her. She told me she had gotten pregnant (by me) and had to leave to go back to her husband. He apparently had been having an affair of his own, so he convinced her to come back to him and promised he would leave the other woman. So she did what she felt she had to do and went back to him.......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 5

I hooked up with K.J out to the "bricks",A.K.A. Capitol Green..He kept lying to me so i went over his head and got with his brother B..This was my dog..He hit me off with a couple of onions(ounces) and I was in the game..That didnt last to long cuz within a month i was locked up.I quickly found out that there is not much loyalty in the game..While doing a couple of months in the joint, I thought i had developed a plan that would make me a better hustler. Boy was i wrong. Needless to say i was locked back up a couple of months later.Once i was back on the streets i chilled for a short minute. Then i met a woman, whom I thought was pretty cool. We kicked it for a little while, but i soon found out that she was getting high off the same stuff i was used to selling to people. My first thought was to leave her alone, but i didnt. And in a very short time i was getting high with her. After battling that kind of addiction for a few months, i got locked up again. I was locked up for about 90 days and i count that time as a blessing. When i got out, i got a job thru a temp agency. There i ran into an old friend from high school. During our lunch break she introduced me to one of her friends and i was open. We kicked it off and on (more like had sex) for a couple of years. Then one night i went to the Elks, and as i got to the bottom of the stairs i saw 2 women. One was tall,and light-skinned,and the other one was thick and brown-skinned. I really wasnt into light-skinned girls so i was only focused on the brown-skinned one. We danced to the "Water Dance" and it was on from there. .....TO B CONTINUED.......uNTIL NEXT TIME....PEACE N LOVE...

Chapter 4

scared and she said no. We ended up sitting in her living room looking at her New Edition posters.. After going out for a couple of months, we broke up and she started seeing someone else..I was heartbroken to say the least. But like always i recovered.. At the end of my freshman year, i met a white girl that i thought was cool, only to get in some trouble. After that, i stayed clear of white girls for a long time. In my sophmore year i met another girl. Her name was Leticia. She was really cool and i really cared about her. After kicking it with her for almost a year, she disappeared. I have not seen her since. I eventually quit school and took to the streets. I started hustling with Rico and Troy. After bullshitting for a couple of years i decided to step my game up. So i went to see a member of the "Lynch Mob". Of course they put me on, and it was on and popping.....To b CONTINUED...

Chapter 3

Well needless to say I havent been right since!! That first shot was like going to another planet. lol. I didnt know what to expect but i got the shock of my life.After that fateful night i was on a mission.. So i spent the next few years "chasing the dragon".lol. Then i entered high school..OMG this was an entirely different animal. On the first day of school,freshman year i was sitting in room 318 and Mrs. Quillen (my homeroom teacher) was standing behind her desk, looking like an ostrich..lol. She asked a question and i heard a voice behind me. An unfamiliar voice but it was the voice of a female. Without turning around i tried to imagine what she would look like. And then i turned around. Sitting there was a beautiful, tall, light-skinned girl. I asked her name and she told me she was Gwen and that she was from California. I was in love under new management..lol. I was so open it didnt make any sense. So, to make a long story short, we started kicking it and she immediately had my heart. Her parents were so strict that she couldnt talk to boys. So we had a mutual friend who would call me, then call her on 3-way. At this point, i would do anything to talk to her. One day, during midterm exams, we got out of school and went to her house. Her parents were at work. We went to her room and layed across her bed.. I asked her if she was.......TO B CONTINUED.....Peace n Love.. Until tomorrow....

Chapter 2

Hello to all who have joined me on this ride...I hope to keep u interested and i hope u learn and grow with me.. Well in the last post i was just giving an intro, and as i continue i will be opening up more n more..So keep reading...In 78 we moved to Whatcoat apartments in Dover. The first friend i met was Corey Washington..The next day i met Tommy..We were almost inseperable..We would do what little boys do; play all sports,talk about girls etc...One day we were playing dirtbomb fight and Tommy got hit in the head. we walked him home and his mom was very upset.. Two days went by and Corey and i went to go check on Tommy. We knocked and knocked but to no avail.. We later found out that Tommy had moved overseas. His dad was in the military and they went to Japan. We never saw him again..There was also Trina and Richard Bowden. Even though i was only about 6 or 7 i had a major crush on Trina..And Richard had a crush on my sister(Amy) so we did what kids do. We chased and chased..lol... So for the next1or 2 years it was us, Trina,Richard, and Corey..Then in the summer of 81 Aven and Charlie moved out to The Coat..Then in the summer of 82 life changed as we knew it.. First there was Willie,Tiff, The,Kim. I think Sandy came a year or two later. Now Whatcoat was the only place on the planet i wanted to be..After a couple of years of all of us growing together, on our way to our teen years..In 1984 my life took another unexpected turn.. My babysitter took my virginity.....To B CONTINUED...Until next time peace n love to all..

This is who i am..

Well let me start by saying that i am 37 years old and i am just now finding out who i really am. And to think all this time i thought that if anyone knew themselves, it was me..I am almost embarassed to say this. I didnt know myself.. When i was doing ok in life, and even when i was at my lowest point , i thought i knew me.I am the oldest of four(with my mom n dad), and i have two sisters and a brother. My sisters are Leslee and Amy. My brother is Darrick..We have a half brother and a half sister( Darlene and Derrick). Poppa was a rolling stone i guess!!lol..We were born in Milford but our house caught fire and we lost everything in 77..So we moved to Louisiana for a few months and then back to Delaware with our grandparents for a few months. Then we moved to Dover in 79. This is the beginning of the Whatcoat era...From 1st grade to 4th grade life was cool.. I had friends,fun and both of my parents..Then i went to the 5th grade and life changed abruptly.......TO B CONTINUED......PEACE N LOVE..UNTIL TOMORROW...GOD WILLING..