Chapter 28

A really old friend of mine was standing there looking like a video vixen. It was like one of those "from geek to sheek" shows. She looked amazing. But i didnt catch the vapors or anything, however i was impressed. We kicked it for a few and she led me into the back part of the house. There was a couple of young dudes, and girls sitting around a table. They were just baggin some green , and playing some cards. In the corner of the kitchen, there was a dice game going on. I walked through to my mans room. We did what we did , and i was out. I never got comfortable in those types of settings. I headed back on the west side. There wasnt much going on in the hood, but it was home so i was good. There was this chic that had just moved to the hood. She was really sexy and she had these beautiful lips.There was just one thing, she was pregnant.  She was sitting out on the steps of her building. I decided to take a chance. I walked over to her and started kickin it. The ice cream man pulls up and i asked her if she wanted something. I got us some ice cream and we talked for a while. After getting to know each other for a few she asked me if i wanted to come inside. We went into her apartment and sat and started watching a movie. While the movie was going on, she leaned over and kissed me. This was no ordinary kiss. I had been kissed before, but this was one of those "I gotta call my momma" kinda kisses. Now i was impressed. Just when things started to heat up , she put the brakes on. I knew i was gonna have blue balls the next morning. She walked me to the door, and asked me to come over the next day. I told her that i would, and i left. I couldnt wait til the next day. The next day, after i did what i had to do, i went out to the hood hoping to see her. Just as i'd hoped, she was sitting outside. I pulled up and got out. She says that she had been waiting for me to show up, and that she was happy to see me. I have to admit that i was glad to see her too, but i wasnt gonna let her know that. We kicked it for a minute and then she said she wanted to go to the mall. I was like " let's go". We got there and i thought she wanted me to buy her some things, but it was exactly the opposite. She wanted to buy me something. Now i was impressed. We went to this men's suit strore and she had me fitted for this hot ass suit. She even picked out the perfect tie. After we grabbed something to eat, we went back to her crib. We put another movie in, but we didnt get thru that one either. After about ten minutes we were in her bedroom. Everything was good. We were a hand and a glove. It just felt right. The next morning, i left her sleep in the bed and went to get us some breakfast. When i got back, she was still sleeping. I woke her up and we ate. I got dressed and told her i would see her later. Before i got out of the door she asked me how old i was. I knew she was older than me, but for some dumb reason i lied to her and told her i was 25. I left and went to the block. I stayed up there for a few hours and i started thinking about her. So i decided to go see her. I knock on the door, and she visibly upset. I ask her what's wrong. She says that i lied to her, and that she found out i wasnt as old as i told her i was. She then tells me she doesnt date younger men and asks me to leave. I do what she asks and i leave. That was the end of that one. I thought i had one.TO B CONTINUED.....Until next time...Peace n Love.

Chapter 27

We hit the Bay bridge and on to the nations capitol in no time. Once we found a hotel, we got settled, took showers, and got dressed for dinner. She knew of this nice soul food restaurant in nw DC, so we headed over there. I had a couple of drinks over dinner, and she had to drive back to the hotel. After a little rest, and a blunt i was back to normal. My homie wanted to go out and knew about a hot ass club so we went to get it in. The club was like that. As soon as we walked thru the door, there was some of the hottest chicks i've ever seen. I'm sure she noticed my wandering eye, but she didnt trip. I think i saw her checkin out some dudes anyway. Besides we are only friends anyway. So it's all good. The dj was on fire, and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves. Then out of nowhere, bang,bang,bang. That was it. Party over. The crowd started a stampede towards the entrance. I grabbed my girl by the hand and pulled her out the side door of the vip section. We ran to the car, and once we were strapped in i took off. We stopped at this diner, and grabbed some breakfast. After we ate, we went back to the room and fell asleep. The next morning, we got up early and bounced. When we got back to Dover, i dropped her off and went home. One of my dudes had been calling me for two days, so i went to check on him. I knocked on the door and when the door swung open i was really surprised to see the person standing there....TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 26

Im really hurt right now. My mom-mom and i were very close. I go to check on my pop-pop, and my aunt. After a brief stop i head to my mom's house. Everyone is pretty sad. I'm no good with mourning so i stay for a few then i'm out. I get a call from one of my boys and we agree, it's time for a meeting. One of our main dudes is on lock and shyt doesnt look good for him. We meet at the spot and after a long discussion about what was going on within the circle, everyone heads in their own direction. I go to see one of my friends, whom i haven't seen in a while. She is cooking dinner and invites me to stay. I smell some ribs, so of course i accept. After we finish eating, i help her with the dishes,and off to the bedroom we go. That was a good night. I get up the next morning, shower, and bounce. She knows i'll be back in a few weeks. It's just one of those relationships. I drive thru the block just to check things out, and as i turn onto New St., an unmarked car pulls up behind me. I don't panic though. I just keep it smooth. He puts his lights on and now i have a decision to make. I'm a little dirty but i'm not going to let him search my car, so either i have to take off, or take a chance on trying to talk my way out of a search. He walks up to my window, and asks me for my paperwork. I give him my shyt and he tells me to sit tight. After about five minutes, he comes back and hands me my papers. I ask him why he pulled me over and he just says, i look like someone who escaped from work release. I know that's some BS but he tells me to have   a nice day, so i ease away from the curb. I make up my mind that i was not coming up there for the day. I decide to go out of town for the day. I call one of my homies and asked her if she wanted to take a ride. She was first of all , glad to hear from me, since it had been a while. She had heard about my man getting knocked, and about my grandmother passing and was concerned for me. When i walk into her living room the t.v. is on and it's on the channel 6 news. There is this white bronco driving down the road and the cops are in hot pursuit. We watch that for a minute and then we were out. I asked her where she wanted to go. She thought i had a plan, but i told her it was one of those spur of the moment kinda trips. After a short debate we decided on D.C. ...TO B CONTINUED....Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 25

This girl was bad. A little bit of Eve mixed with a little Trina. I wasn't really surprised by this because i knew she batted from both sides of the plate. But i was feeling pretty lucky that it was happening to me. The girl comes over to the bed and grabs my hand. I stand up and begin to caress her curves. She pushes me back and turns to her girl. They start to get it on and im as hard as chinese arithemetic. I just stand there and watch for a few minutes. Then they both turn over and lay on their stomachs. Now it was my turn to enjoy myself. Of course i handled my business and everyone was satisfied. As im laying there with these two hotties, i begin to think about what happened earlier that night. There was actually someone else laying in the bed i had shared with this woman for the last few years. I look over at the clock and it's after 2am so i get up, get dressed and im out. After a good breakfast at the diner, i go out to Whatcoat. As i pull in i can see two cop cars in the back. I immediately turn in behind the first building.  I park and cut my lights off. I knew i had to either sneak in through the back or take a chance of driving back out of there. I sat there for a minute and then i decided to sneak in behind the buildings. I got to the back door of 956 and a cat came out of nowhere. That thing scared the shyt out of me. I got in and layed on the couch and went to sleep. The next morning i called my now ex girl and we have that dreaded break-up conversation. After talking for almost an hour i was done and so was she. After learning that she didnt give the cops my name or anything i felt more at ease about driving out in public. I get to the block at about 10am and it's poppin already. It's check week so there is plenty of money to get. I make a quick walk thru and i post up. Everything is going smooth until we see an unmarked car come sliding to a screeching halt. Dudes take off in all directions, but me and my squad stay put. Nobody is dirty and not one of us has any kind of warrant. They grab us up, pat us down and get in there car after a fair warning, they pull off. My man T starts clowning these pigs, and antagonizing them. I pull him up on that shyt immediately. We dont want them fuckin with us. I stay on the block for a couple of hours and i go get some lunch. Then as im pulling back into town, i get this dreaded phone call. It's my sister calling to tell me that my grandmother had just passed away...TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love.

chapter 24

I took off around the side of the next building. I ran through two other buildings and across the street to whatcoat. I went inside and chilled for a few, heart pounding. I wasn't sure if i was more mad or hurt. She called the cops on me. That was the one rule that was never to be broken. My #1 rule was that if you call the cops on me once (no matter what) you will never get a chance to call them again. Me and this chick had been through a lot but she knew the rule. Yet she called them anyway. So i knew that our relationship was over no matter what. I thought about calling her , but i wasn't ready to have that coversation just yet. I stayed in for a while because now the cops were surely looking for me. I know she gave them my name. After about three hours, i decided to go check out this spot we had on the east side. I also had an old fling out there so i wanted to pay her a visit. I got a some bread from one of my peoples and pulled up the street to my friends crib. All the lights were off except for her bedroom light. I knocked on the door and yelled from the window,"who is it?" I yell back who it is and she comes down and opens the door. She acts kinda happy to see me. Probably because she knows whats about to go down.She takes my hand and leads me upstairs to her room. When the door opens i hear "You, Me,and He" playing in the background. There are scented candles burning, so im thinking she must have been already expecting someone. We lay across the bed and she is being very sensual. A little more than im used to from her. Then the door swings open. I had my back to the door so it scared me until i see this bad ass chick walk  in....TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 23

He says that they were on New St. and the boys rolled up and jumped out on my man. He had a couple of grams of raw on him, and they found it. They also had him for a delivery. He already had three pending charges that he was out on bail for, so things didn't look good. His bail was set at $100,000 which meant he needed $10,000 cash to get out. I had a couple of thousand to contribute and a couple of members of the squad had most of the rest, but he wanted a lawyer instead of making bail. At that point he figured if he was gonna get some time, he might as well stay in and get time served. He was also banking on a lawyer getting him off, so he sat in DCC. I was kind of worried that they might of tried to pin a delivery on me, so i left town for a couple of days. I came back a week later, and the block was not the same. It almost looked like a ghost town. Except for the usual crackheads walking up and down the block looking for a hit, the only thing out there were the cops. I didnt stay up there long. After going out to Whatcoat for a while, i headed to the crib. When i got there i was greeted at the door by my girl. At this point we werent together but i still felt like this was still home. Boy was i wrong. She opens the door and comes out into the hallway. She closed the door behind her, but i could hear male voices. I know she had since gotten rid of her roommate, and i didnt recognize these voices. We at in the hall for a few and then i got tired so i wanted to go. My jealousy got the best of me though. I stood like i was about to leave, but instead i walked straight in the door. One of her friends was sitting on the couch talking to this African dude. I walked into her bedroom and there is this guy laying across her bed. I immediately woke his ass up and he was scared to death. He immediately began to plead with me. I wasnt trying to hear that shit. I wanted to know who the hell he was. She came running in the room and i'm standing there with a 45 to his head. I started to curse her out but i thought that was a waste of breath. I made the friend leave too. Then she goes on and on about me not having the right to put her friends out. I turned and spit in her face and walked out the door. By the time i got outside the cops were rolling around the corner...TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 22

After all the love , one of my homies passed me a thick ass Dutch. I immediately took a couple of drags and began to choke my lungs out. Within a few minutes i was able to catch my breath and dry my eyes. Once i gained my composure i got a beer and it was on like Whatcoat always was. We sat out there until the wee hours of the morning gettin it in. When it was time to call it a night, i staggered to 950 and crashed on the couch. The next morning i woke up with the worst hangover imaginable. I made a cup of coffee, and went outside to smoke. After i finished with my wake n bake, i went back upstairs, took a shower, and got dressed. I headed out to LBC to see what was poppin. There wasnt much going on , so i left and headed to the block. I posted up in front of K apartments and began to get that dough. Once 5.0 started rollin, i rolled. I got a call from my man to meet him at the spot. After a couple of games of pool, we bounced. We planned to meet at the club later. As i drove out of the parking lot, i got an overwhelming feeling that i should go and talk to my soon to be ex. I called and asked what she was doing. She said not much and that she wanted to see me. I shot straight over there. Once inside she took my hand and led me towards the bedroom. I thought she wanted to get a little freaky, but when she closed the door, and turned around i could see that she had tears in her eyes. I asked what was wrong, and she asked me who else i was seeing. This took me by surprise because i was still thinking she was liking my enemy. I asked her who she was seeing, and she said she wasn't seeing anyone. We argued about this for what seemed like all night. After i couldn't take it anymore, i was out. I went back to the block and got my grind on for a while , and then i headed to the crib to get ready for the club. On my way to the club i stopped at the liquor store and got a bottle. I pull up in front of the club, and it was packed as usual.There were cars ridin up and down the street trying to find a place to park. I always would park around the corner so i parked and hopped out. Lookin fresh to deaf, i proceeded towards the club. I walk in and pay my 5 bucks i walk down the steps. When i get to the bottom of the steps i check out the scenery. There are a lot of potentials in the building. I walk over to the bar and i see my man G standing there with this other cat who just started hangin around the squad. I didn't trust him from that very moment. G says to me " now i guess your boy needs your help." I ask what he's talking about. He says " they just got your boy." TO BE CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love.

Chapter 21

I leave the girls crib and head to the new crib. I get to the door and i could hear some male voices. I hadn't gotten a key yet so i knock on the door. The door swings open and this dude i recognize is standing there. He says whats up like he has known me forever. He looks really familiar, but i cant place his face. He leads me into the living room and there are two other guys playing Madden on MY xbox. They both stand up, introduce themselves and give me some dap. One of them asks me if i want next. I say yeah and grab a beer from the fridge. The roommate tells me that my girl is at work but should be home soon. He says she is really excited to see me, so she's getting off early. I blow one of the dudes out in madden and they leave. The roommate says he's going over his girls house and he bounces. After they leave, i take a shower and lay back across the bed. About a half hour later i hear someone coming in. My girl comes in the room and sees me laying there. She smiles and says hello. I stand and grab her. We hug and kiss for what seemed like forever. She tells me how happy she is that i am home. She begins to cry, and i ask her whats wrong. I can tell that those are not tears of joy. Something is bothering her. I ask is she wants to talk about it. She begins to tell me exactly what i don't want to hear. She has been kinda talking to someone. I ask who it is. At first i'm not sure if i really want to know. But i ask anyway. Is it someone i know? She says yes. Now my heart is beating a million miles per hour. I'm ready to flip. I ask for the fifth or sixth time, who is he. She finally tells me it's the dude that i have the beef with. The dude who snuck me on New st. Now i am really pissed, but i'm more hurt than mad. Because she knows i dont like this dude. I grab my stuff and bounce. Now it was on. It was a war now. I call my boy and tell him i need some heat. He tells me to meet him at his crib. I get there a few minutes later and he pulls up behind me. We go in and go down to the basement. He pulls out a couple of pieces and hands me two 40 cals. Before i walk out the door, he asks me to look him in the eye. He asks me if im sure this is the way i want to handle this. I say im sure, but in my heart im really not sure. I begin to think of my mom, my kids, my life. He puts his hands out and i hand him the guns back. After he puts them back,we go in the living room and sit. His wife comes out and brings us a beer. He and i sit and talk for a while. I leave a little later and go out to Whatcoat. Everybody is out on the steps of 930. As i pull up, i realize that no one knows im out yet. I park and get out. Everyone starts to yell out my name and i get a huge Whatcoat welcome home..TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love...

Chapter 20

I was wondering how one of my so called best friends in life could leave me locked, out of state with nothing. One thing was for sure. I was on my way to find out. My other man was getting ready to turn himself in to start a fresh three. He was gonna be a dad for the first time too. We were chillin so we drove around to the ol club and parked. We went inside and greeted everybody,then headed to the bar. We chilled at the bar for a few and someone whispered in my ear."He's outside". I got up immediately but my boy new how i felt at the time, so wanted me to be calm when i went out there. I took a deep breath and i walked out the door. You could hear him from Queen St. He was just that loud. He didnt even see me at first. I just stood there for a minute. Then he saw me, and yells "Is that Free Love"? I just look at him for a second.He says ( all loud) " i got something for you" in his worst Monte Hall impression. I say " is that right?" He says come on lets take a walk. We proceed to walk towards New st. At first we dont talk but as soon as we hit Q st he turns to me and tells me he's sorry for leaving me but he wanted to make it up to me. That wasnt  important to me. Yeah i was broke and needed to get back on my feet. But what i wanted to know was why you did'nt come back and get me. This was supposed to be my boy. And he left me hanging. We would be talking later.We get to the spot and he goes in the kitchen. He comes back out and hands me a purple bag and a roll of cash. I tell him i'll holla at him later and i walk out the door. I walked straight back to the car and drove to another spot. I called my boy who was still at the club. I tell him to meet me at the homegirls crib. Once back at the crib I go upstairs and i look in the bag. There's two onions of some raw, and the knot totaled a stack(.$1000) I was back on my feet. It was getting late and hadn't even been to the house yet. My girl had moved and she now had a roommate. She said he was a coworker that needed a place and she needed help with bills while i was locked up. She said he knew me and he was cool. .....TO B CONTINUED...Until next time..Peace n Love

Chapter 19

We were booked and processed by 7pm. As we entered the county jail, i wondered if this jail was like Smyrna or Georgetown. To my surprise it was nothing like home joints at all. But for the better. It was some cool ass brothers , but like everywhere else, there were some niggas too. I was on the bottom floor in cell 11. My man was upstairs in cell 24. We had a brief chance to rap and then it was count time. We had to go tomour cells for the night. My cellie was this dude from Mt. holly. He was around my age and pretty cool. We got cool instantly. He schooled me to how things went down in there. The next morning my boy and i had some free time to come up with our plan to get out. He called his wife and she was on her to get him. He assured me that i would be out the next day. Well i ended up staying for three weeks. My mom and my cousin came to pick me up. I walked in the door on Christmas morning and was happier than i had been in while. I finally got to see what kind of partner i was dealing with. I had already decided to go see him later. My two closest female friends were these two sisters who lived out to the hood.(whatcoat). I immediately called and woke them up. They were glad to hear from me, and they were going to cook Christmas dinner. We chilled and smoked some good, ate, got full and i fell asleep. My boy, who was kickin it with one of the sisters, was there and he kept waking me up. We had a good time, but something had been bothering me for the last couple of hours. I needed to go see my man. ...TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 18

We had this dude drive us up there, so the three of us got out and proceeded to walk up 142nd St. As we enter this bodega this hispanic guy comes up to us and offers us some good ass weed. My man tells him no thanks and we move on. We go to the back and enter this booth. My boy picks up a phone and calls his wife and chats with her for a minute. Then this guy, who looks like he's about 70 comes up to us. He hands my man a brick wrapped in duct tape. My man hands him the brown bag with the money in it, and we are out. While walking back to the car, we spot two cops coming towards us. We act cool and they walk right by us. Once we get back to the car, we buckle up and were off. While we were at the spot we copped two bags of some of that good ass weed. Before we left DE the plan was to take the long way back. We were supposed to come thru philly. But as we near the bridge my boy tells the driver to get on the turnpike. I immediately questioned his decision, but he said his instincs told him were good. We rolled the blunt when we got to exit 18 and toss the roach out of the window. When we got to exit 14 we see three black guys pulled over. The cops had them sitting on the ground in front of the car. When we get to exit 7a i notice a cop behind us. He puts his lights on and pull us over. My boy throws the coke in the drivers lap and tells him to hold it. The driver panics and stuffs it under his gear shift. Once the cop gets us out of the car, he asks my boy for permission to search the car. My man says i dont care it's not my car. The cop proceeds to search the car. It only takes him about 30 seconds to find the stash. Another cop pulls up and puts the driver in his car. The cop that pulled us over puts me and my man in his car. While were driving to the station he tells us that as long as the driver cops to it, then he will let us go. Of course the driver said it wasnt his. So we all went to Burlington county jail. ...TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love...

Chapter 17

After we argued until the wee hours of the morning, i finally went to sleep. The next morning i woke up on a mission. I got up, took a shower, got dressed and bounced. I stopped and had a bite to eat, and headed for the block. Usually me and my boy meet up around 8am, but you know what they say," the early bird gets the worm". So i was trappin hard. We always park our cars a few blocks away so the cops dont know what we are driving. After being on New for a couple of hours, i saw my man coming up the block. We talked for a minute and then i began to tell him about the night before. He started clowning about dude knockin my girl off. Of course i wasnt trying to hear that. We decided to go play some pool, just to get off the block for a while. Once we finished shooting pool, we met up at his moms for lunch. I told him i would meet him back on the block around dark. I went home and she wasnt home. So i walked Trey, took a shower, and got dressed again. I left her a note to call me and once again i was out. I called my man and told him i was on my way in town. He didnt want to drive so he asked me to pick him up. I went and scooped him up and we headed for the block. We were on the block for a couple of hours and then i noticed an unmarked police car coming down the block. As the car approached us i could see the doors begin to open. I hootie-hooed my boy and we took off in opposite directions. While i was running, i looked back and could see one of them about 40 yards behind me. I knew i had him beat. I ran to a local crack house, and since i hadnt tossed my pack, i had rent money. After about an hour i called my man to make sure he was good. He was cool, and waiting for me to grab him up. I went picked him up, and we went out whatcoat. We changed clothes and went back in town. It was the night to go to the Elks,so we met up there later. As the club was letting out, we were parking lot pimpin until i spotted the same cop car from earlier coming up the street. I wanted no parts of them so i got in the car and pulled off. We hung out whatcoat for a while and i went home. The next morning my boy called to ask me if i wanted to "take the ride". I said hell yeah. He said he would pick me up in 30 minutes. I hung up and my phone rang again. It was this chic i was really cool with, and she said she had something for me. I told her to come over. I told myself that whoever got there first, i was going to go with them. Well my boy got there first and my heart told me to get out of the car,but my mind told me to go with him. The next thing i know we are in NYC......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 16

Standing there, opening my door is my arch enemy(at that time). A few weeks prior, Im on New st. with my dog,trappin and this dude walks up. At first he acts like everything is cool, then he sneaks me. I had been hit harder by my kids so i wasnt fazed. It just caught me by surprise. I had a hand full of rocks, so i told him to wait there. I run about 15 yards away, hide my stash, and run back. Him and his brother jump in the car and pull off. My boy and i laugh about it. Until now i hadnt seen him, but here he was anwsering my door. He looks kinda surprised. I dont know why, because there are about 10 pictures of me right there in the living room. Sitting in my living room are two of her female friends. And this dude and his two boys. I tell her,not ask her, to come with me. I walk down the hall to our bedroom. Once she comes in and closes the door i ask her whats up. She tells me it's not what it looks like. Im smart enough to know that when someone starts with "its not what it looks like" it usually is. So right then i stop her and tell her about me and dudes encounter. She wasnt aware of that but assured me that they were just friends from work. Now me being the man that i am, i know what dudes intentions were. I tell her they gotta go, and continue their party elsewhere. She didnt want to be rude, so i told her i would tell them. By the time i came out the girls were gone and this M$%^&*&**er is still sitting in my living room. I hear a horn blow, so i assumed it was his boys waiting for him. I tell him he gotta go, and she comes out behind me. He asks her "are you alright"? I say to him,"what you gonna do save her?" She says to him "just go,im fine". He walks toward the door,but i notice she looks at him in a certain way as he's leaving. The door closes, and i turn to her and ask her does she like this guy? She says its not like that. They just work together and there isnt been anything going on. She says that i should know her by now, and that she would never cheat on me. I had always been the cheater so being that i sensed something was going on i felt some kind of way. A way i had never felt before. I didnt like this feeling either. So i begin to interrogate her on how she met this dude, and how long she had been talking to him...etc. After a few short anwsers, she says she's tired if anwsering to me. That was only adding fuel to the fire that was alraedy burning inside me. I already wanted to kill him. I mean that literally. What started off as an interrogation, turned into WW3. .......TO B CONTINUED,,Until next time....Peace n Love...

Chapter 14

Trey was the coolest dog in the world. We had alot of fun with that dog. My girl (at the time) worked alot, and i worked so we would sleep and work. And every now and then we would go on trips ,or something. But things were cool. We had a couple of friends (male n female couple) that would come over and hang out. Or we would go on different trips with them. It was all good until one night at mingles the girl- friend wanted to slow dance with me. I mean i didnt turn her down. As a matter of fact i was grindin harder than her. She could feel me hard as chinese arithematic. We danced and i told her to meet me and she agreed. I got in the crack rental car i had, and i was out. I went to the spot but she was all nervous about her dude finding out that i didnt want to waste my time and run the risk of getting caught. So we went our seperate ways, and promised to keep our "almost" indiscresion a secret. One night we had got tickets to a Bad Boy concert in Philly. We got there but it was cancelled because of jodeci's grand-parents had passed. So we hung out in philly for a while and came back to our crib. We were sitting in the living room having some drinks and smoking some good. All of a sudden we hear a boom,boom,boom. I was oblivious to the the fact that i lived right next to a State cop. I opened the door and this dude was standing there in his boxers and a t-shirt. I said "what if my girl would have anwsered the door, and i slammed the door in his face. My girl said that was a bad idea. She said now you cant keep any trees in here. Period. I could no longer sit on my deck and smoke somethin. I felt some kinda way about that. But i followed the rules for my own safety. For a while. I got locked up again. This time im ridin dirty,but we toss the pack, and pull over. The cop took me down for a violation of probation. I was locked up for a couple of months, and i call my girl, she says " i dont know how to tell you this". I ask what she's talking about? She says " i sold trey".This woman had sold my dog. I was so upset. I just hung-up on her. I requested no visits from her for the rest of my time. After about 2 months, i get a 18 page letter from her. The letter begins with how she hopes im in good spirits,blah;blah..Then she proceeds to tell me she was behind on her bills ,by me not being there,so she had to get a roommate. He was some dude that responded to her ad. I wasnt really feeling that of course. Since i still had about 30 days left, i wrote her and told her to come visit me. She came up two weeks later. My main focus was the roommate. She kept trying to assure me that i had nothing to worry about. So i finish my time, and was free. I go out to whatcoat to see mom and the fam. Take a shower, and im out. I pull up to the crib, and there is her car, and three other cars. I walk up to the door and tried the door. It was locked so i knock ,and the door swings open........TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 13

Of course i didnt wait to call her. I was on the phone as soon as i got home. We kicked it for a few and i went to see her the next day. She had a really nice place and i could tell immediately she was smart, funny and more important a GOD fearin woman. We had a nice dinner, talked and she walked me to the door. I called her later that night and asked if i could come back,but she said no. She had to work the next morning. I respected that, but i was disappointed nonetheless. I called her the next day and she agreed that we should see each other again, soon. So we made plans for the evening, and i was really anxious for some reason. I showed up at her house around 6pm. She was just getting dinner done. I got to meet her son, and he was a really cool kid. We hit it off from the gate. I think that kinda put her at ease as well. After we ate, we watched some t.v and she told her son it was bedtime. He said goodnight and went to bed. We went to her room and went to bed. The next morning she dropped me off out whatcoat on her way to work. She told me to call her later and of course i called. Our friendship began to grow from there. About a year prior to meeting my friend, i met a chic in the mall. We kicked it a few times but i hadnt seen her in about a year. I was walking out to Liberty court and she called me from a window. I was surprised to see her because i had tried to get in touch with her for a while, but to no avail. She said it was ok that i came up. We talked for a bit and i explained to her that i had been looking for her. She then told me she had had a baby by some guy, and she had been staying with him up north. I didnt ask to many questions and i didnt get to many anwsers. I ended up spending the night. That was kinda a come and go thing for a while. After a couple of days of my girl being gone to N.Y. for the weekend , i had to go home. I then got a job at a credit card company and there was this pet shop in the mall. I had two close friends at work. We would always take our breaks together so we could smoke some weed. One day we walked into the pet shop and there was the cutest puppy i had ever seen. He was a lhaso apso and he was 8 weeks old. When my girl came to pick me up from work i already had a plan. I figured there was no way she was gonna look at him and say no. Just like i planned, she couldnt resist. Until she looked at his price tag.!!! At first she said hell no. But right on cue he started whinning, and giving her the puppy dog eyes. She made me promise to give her half the money back on payday. I agreed, and we took him home. We dicided to name him Trey....TO B CONTINUED...Until next time peace and Love..

Chapter 12

It was on. Then i hear bang,bang,bang..Lights out ,party over. Everybody scattered like roaches at 3am.. The crew and I jumped in about three different cars and we were out. We rode out to the bricks to see Our Dude. He hooked my man T up with this big ass tech. We then headed to camden, where we heard "That Dude" from the other side lived. My man T was about to wet the crib up but i turned around and there was a cop coming towards us. I hollered to my man to put that thing away. He tucked it, and we started walking back to the cars. It did'nt look like anybody was there anyway. Some young dude that rode with somebody didnt have a shirt on, so the cop stopped. He asked our names, where we were going , and where we were headed. The first person said we were looking for our friends party, so everyone followed suit. He let us walk. I guess he figured he couldnt catch us all. On our way back in town, somebody said that there was a guy that we knew that was with the other side. So we decided to pay him a little visit. Nobody was home. As we proceed to get back in the car all you hear is bang,bang, bang. My man T done lit the side of this crib up. Everybody jumped in their rides and we were out. We sat out whatcoat, on the steps of 950 until about 3 or 4 am. Everybody went their seperate ways. The next day i went to the sale to get some cd's and there was this brown-skin lady walking on the other side. I couldnt really see what she looked like so i went over and got behind her. I could see she was short, and had a cute shape. I could also see rings on her finger. Yeah that finger. At first i started to go the other way but i walked up behind her and said hello. She turned around and to my pleasant surprise she was really cute. She had the most beautiful smile. I asked her name and she told me. I asked if could call her, so she gave me her number. I gave her my number and we talked for a minute. I said goodbye and she smiled and went her way. I ended up calling her later that day and she invited me to dinner a couple of nights later........TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 11

They took me to police station and fingerprinted me and took my mug shots. Then they took me to the magistrate court. The judge set my bail, and they took me to Smyrna prison. I had been here before, so it really wasnt a big deal. The difference this time was that i didnt know how long i was gonna be there. I went to court a couple of weeks later and I took a plea to six months in jail  and six months of work release. I did another couple of weeks in jail and due to over crowding i was sent to work release. The chic that i used to get high with started coming to pick me up for my home passes. I had a couple of months left and then i went on pass and never went back. I was on escape for about 2 months before i got tired of running and killing myself so i turned myself in. I was locked up for 2 months and then i was free again. I chilled for a few weeks and then right back to the same ol shyt. On the block once again. I was sitting out whatcoat on the steps of 930 and a white chevette pulls up. The drivers side door opens and out jumps one of my best friends of life, R. He started telling me how he was awol from the military and his wife was about to give birth. They were staying at a cheap hotel and he had a limited amount of money and needed to come up. I assured him that i would look out for him. We went out to mifflin meadows to see this dude i knew was getting it. I talked business with him for a few and he looked out. We left and went on New street. I broke the work down for him and showed him what was what. We stayed out til 2 or 3 in the morning and went our seperate ways. I didnt go on the block for about 8 days and went in town. I asked some dude if he had seen my dogs. He said they were at my man R's house. This was a little surprising since he was just in a hotel less than 2 weeks ago. I knocked on the door and one of my dogs opened the door. He welcomed me in and led me to the kitchen. My boy R was standing there cooking some coke up. I was kinda impressed because he had learned really quick. He started telling me how he had this connect in New York and he gave me a couple hundred dollars and an ounce of coke. It was on and poppin. We formed a squad that consisted of only R, myself and three of his cousins. We decided to try to take the block over. After a couple of weeks out there we began to notice that there was a few dudes that didnt want to respect the game, so we started beefin with these dudes. They were from D.C so we didnt want them on our block anyway. One night we were all out on the block and they were across the street. My boy A got a little uneasy about one of them looking over at us. So we did what was natural. We walked across the street and my boy A, asked if dude had a problem. This guy tried to front like he had some heart, so my boy stole the shit out of him.......TO B CONTINUED..Until next time...Peace n Love

Chapter 10

She saw me and immediately came over to where me and my man were standing. The first thing she says to me is " im sorry". She started explaining how that dude that snatched her up was her ex, and how he was nuts. I tried to act hard and completely ignored her. She kept trying to talk to me but the more she talked, the more i tuned her out. Then she said "come home with me". Now she had my attention..So we walked outside and talked for a few, and then i went inside to say peace to my dog. We left in her car and headed south. I didnt know her very well so i had no idea where we were headed. So i began to ask questions. I still remembered what my boy told me about her crazy ass ex. She said he didnt have keys to her crib and that i had nothing to worry about. I wasnt really worried but i did want to know where i was gonna b at for the night. We ended up at her crib about 45 minutes later and i was kinda impressed. I mean it wasnt her crib, but rather how she lived. She had a leather sectional, big screen t.v, giant aquarium, the works. But what impressed me more than anything was that her crib was spotless. Im talking white glove clean. We walked into her bedroom and she wanted to shower, so we did. We got comfortable and started talking about life. This chic was really cool. But what i liked more than anything was that she was smart. After staying up most of the night, we slept until about noon, and i woke up fresh as could be. We got dressed and i left in her car. It was a rental so i was just dropping it off for her. I got home later that afternoon and hung out at home for a little while. All the while thinking about the chic from last night. She was all in my head. I had to get myself together. So i called my homie and he came to pick me up. We went on the New street to hustle for a couple hours. After two or three hours on the block we went to the mall to get something to wear for the night. We got what we wanted and he dropped me off to get dressed. He picked up about an hour later and we were out. Off to the New square club. We were standing by the bar kickin it with a couple of friends and the door opened. There she was. I usually would have been a little turned off by seeing a woman this soon after spending the night before with her. But this time it was different. I went right over to her and we started talking. She was glad to see me too, so we left after a few minutes. We wnet to her house,but this time there was another car in her driveway. She said her brother was there and she wanted me to meet him. We went in and there was one guy at the stove, cooking coke, and another dude sitting at the table. She introduced me to her brother and the other dude. They were cool, and we started talking business. We decided to go in business together. Since what he was paying for his i could get cheaper and still make some dough. I kicked with them for a couple months and shit got a little hot on there end so we chilled. I went back to K.j and the boys out to "the Bricks". I got some work and proceeded to the block. I was on "the strip" and started gettin it.I went in the club, got a drink, and chilled for a minute. I was outside for about 5 minutes and this white truck pulled up. There was a white guy, and a white chic inside. Everybody that was hustling ran up to the truck. So my first thought was that they must be cool. Everybody must know them. I walked up to the truck and showed them some big pieces. The white chic said i want yours. I handed her the 20 piece of rock and she gave me $20. They drove off, and i started walking back towards the corner. As soon as i got to the corner there was a blue monte carlo coming to a stop but the doors were already open. It was the jump-out boys. Five Oh! I took off running. I threw the bottle of pieces i had on me. Then i stopped running, and this basterd threw me face first on the ground. They handcuffed me and put me in the back of a police car. I began to act hard. Talking shit to the cops, because i had already got rid of it. Or so i thought. The detective that threw me on the ground tapped on the window and there it was. The same bottle i thought i got rid of......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter9

Well we buried dad the next week, and i was glad to see that my dad had alot of friends , and people that cared about him in one way or the other. It was really rough for me for a little while. I had never really imagined life without my dad. GOD has a way of making sure we are able to accept the deaths of our loved ones. So now what? I knew that my mom, and my brother and sisters needed me. So i ran to the streets. Instead of being a good son, and a big brother, i ran. I stayed in the streets so i wouldnt have to face them. On Monday , the Old square club,Tuesday hustle day, Wednesday, Old square club, Thursday the Elks, Friday, The grill, Saturday, The Gun n Rod, Sunday New square club. In that order. Im hanging real tough with this dude that i was cool with. Every night, im going to one chics house, and he's going to one. This dude allegedly had like 22 kids or something. But i didnt judge him. He was my dog. One night i met this older chic ( like 12 years older) and she had a lot going for herself. So i did what was almost second nature. I took full advantage. I was living pretty cool for a smooth minute , but she soon saw thru me. So i kept it moving. I still would go HOLLA at her every now and then, but no longer on anything serious. Then i was at the old square club one night and i met this fly ass chic She had her name in her earrings, so i used that as a way to holla at her. She was feeling me anyway so everything was good. Until this dude came in the club and grabbed her up and drug her out the door. It happened so fast that they were out the door before i had time to react. I was about to go outside, but my man grabbed and told me not to mess with dude. Apparently he was known for shooting people. So i kept it moving and all n all it was a smooth night. The next night was Griil night so of course me and my boy were in the building. All of a sudden there she was. The same chic that got snatched from me the night before...........TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 8

I almost lost it, but a nurse said she would have someone come to take me downstairs. We waited by the elevator until a security guard came up. He led us down to the bottom floor. There was a big gray door with a thermometer on the outside that read 32 degrees. I told the security guard to get hi out of there before he froze. He just gave me this blank stare. I wasnt prepared for what i saw next. The guard pulled out a long steel stretcher with a black bag on it. He unzipped the bag and there was my dad. Dead. The next thing i know i was being helped up off the ground outside the hospitol. We drove to my house out whatcoat and i just went in and layed down next to my mom. We cried together for a while and i think i eventually fell asleep. When i woke up the next morning, i was hoping that i had just had a really bad dream, but by the mood of everyone else, i knew it was a reality. I had just lost my best friend in the world. For the next few days, my mother and i were trying to get all the funeral arrangements taken care of, and we had to go meet the insurance salesman, the funeral director and the pastor. While sitting in the funeral directors house, the insurance guy says he's sorry but he had made a mistake. Somehow he had overlooked something and now after my dad paying all his premiums on time for 7 or 8 years, they were only gonna pay for $600 of the total cost. I nearly lost my mind. Thank GOD for the pastor. He said the church would help with the rest. My mother and i didnt know what to say. We were speechless. ......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time..Peace n Love..

chapter 7

It didnt take me long to bounce back though.. We used to go to the dugout on Thursdays, and one week I met this dark skinned chic from Md. We became cool instantly..During this time my dad had goteen sick and he wasnt doing so well. His kidneys had begun to fail a few years earlier, but by this time he was in his last days. My dad and i werent just father and son. We were also very close friends. This was really taking a toll on me, and even worse having to see my mom lose the only man she had ever loved was really difficult. My new female friend from Md. had to go to a family reunion outta town and she was gonna be gone for 2 weeks. We had become close kinda fast and i kinda missed her. She was only gone one week though. She kinda missed me too, so she drove back a week early. This was the single worst night of my life. She had went out whatcoat looking for me, but someone told her i was at the hospitol. She came up to the floor where me and my family, and alot of friends from my moms church were crowded in the waiting area. We would go in to see dad two or three at a time. When my friend got there i was pleasantly surprised to see her, but you can imagine the mood i was in. I told my mom i would see her in the morning, and i went in to say goodnight to my dad. When i went in he looked a little different to me. Kinda weak and helpless. Not the 6'3" 250lbs strong willed man i had grown to love and respect. But i loved and respected him even more now. I kissed him on his forhead and said " I'll see you in the morning dad..I love you." And i walked out with my friend. We drove to her house in Md. but it was only 20 minutes from home. We chilled for a while, smoked a blunt and then at 12:15am the phone rang. It was my mom telling me my dad was gone. I was heartbroken like no one can ever imagine. My cousin and a family friend came over to pick me up. On the way home i asked the friend to take me to the hospitol. We went up to his room but he had already been moved...........TO B CONTINUED....Until next time...Peace n Love..

chapter 6

That was on Thursday. By Friday she called me and asked me to come spend the weekend with her. Of course i obliged!! We just chilled all weekend and i went home on Sunday. We kept in touch, and began a cool friendship. There was only one problem...She was married.. Her husband was in the military and they were kinda going thru something. So at that point i felt like i was just filling in until they got things worked out. Then just as soon as she entered my life, without warning she was gone. I was devastated.. After trying to contact her for a few months, i finally gave up and eventually got back on my grind. I hustled, played the field, and partied for a while, and then out of the blue i get this phone call. It was HER!!! I hung up on her twice, but she called back a third time and i decided to stop frontin and talk to her. She told me she had gotten pregnant (by me) and had to leave to go back to her husband. He apparently had been having an affair of his own, so he convinced her to come back to him and promised he would leave the other woman. So she did what she felt she had to do and went back to him.......TO B CONTINUED...Until next time...Peace n Love..

Chapter 5

I hooked up with K.J out to the "bricks",A.K.A. Capitol Green..He kept lying to me so i went over his head and got with his brother B..This was my dog..He hit me off with a couple of onions(ounces) and I was in the game..That didnt last to long cuz within a month i was locked up.I quickly found out that there is not much loyalty in the game..While doing a couple of months in the joint, I thought i had developed a plan that would make me a better hustler. Boy was i wrong. Needless to say i was locked back up a couple of months later.Once i was back on the streets i chilled for a short minute. Then i met a woman, whom I thought was pretty cool. We kicked it for a little while, but i soon found out that she was getting high off the same stuff i was used to selling to people. My first thought was to leave her alone, but i didnt. And in a very short time i was getting high with her. After battling that kind of addiction for a few months, i got locked up again. I was locked up for about 90 days and i count that time as a blessing. When i got out, i got a job thru a temp agency. There i ran into an old friend from high school. During our lunch break she introduced me to one of her friends and i was open. We kicked it off and on (more like had sex) for a couple of years. Then one night i went to the Elks, and as i got to the bottom of the stairs i saw 2 women. One was tall,and light-skinned,and the other one was thick and brown-skinned. I really wasnt into light-skinned girls so i was only focused on the brown-skinned one. We danced to the "Water Dance" and it was on from there. .....TO B CONTINUED.......uNTIL NEXT TIME....PEACE N LOVE...

Chapter 4

scared and she said no. We ended up sitting in her living room looking at her New Edition posters.. After going out for a couple of months, we broke up and she started seeing someone else..I was heartbroken to say the least. But like always i recovered.. At the end of my freshman year, i met a white girl that i thought was cool, only to get in some trouble. After that, i stayed clear of white girls for a long time. In my sophmore year i met another girl. Her name was Leticia. She was really cool and i really cared about her. After kicking it with her for almost a year, she disappeared. I have not seen her since. I eventually quit school and took to the streets. I started hustling with Rico and Troy. After bullshitting for a couple of years i decided to step my game up. So i went to see a member of the "Lynch Mob". Of course they put me on, and it was on and popping.....To b CONTINUED...

Chapter 3

Well needless to say I havent been right since!! That first shot was like going to another planet. lol. I didnt know what to expect but i got the shock of my life.After that fateful night i was on a mission.. So i spent the next few years "chasing the dragon".lol. Then i entered high school..OMG this was an entirely different animal. On the first day of school,freshman year i was sitting in room 318 and Mrs. Quillen (my homeroom teacher) was standing behind her desk, looking like an ostrich..lol. She asked a question and i heard a voice behind me. An unfamiliar voice but it was the voice of a female. Without turning around i tried to imagine what she would look like. And then i turned around. Sitting there was a beautiful, tall, light-skinned girl. I asked her name and she told me she was Gwen and that she was from California. I was in love under new management..lol. I was so open it didnt make any sense. So, to make a long story short, we started kicking it and she immediately had my heart. Her parents were so strict that she couldnt talk to boys. So we had a mutual friend who would call me, then call her on 3-way. At this point, i would do anything to talk to her. One day, during midterm exams, we got out of school and went to her house. Her parents were at work. We went to her room and layed across her bed.. I asked her if she was.......TO B CONTINUED.....Peace n Love.. Until tomorrow....

Chapter 2

Hello to all who have joined me on this ride...I hope to keep u interested and i hope u learn and grow with me.. Well in the last post i was just giving an intro, and as i continue i will be opening up more n more..So keep reading...In 78 we moved to Whatcoat apartments in Dover. The first friend i met was Corey Washington..The next day i met Tommy..We were almost inseperable..We would do what little boys do; play all sports,talk about girls etc...One day we were playing dirtbomb fight and Tommy got hit in the head. we walked him home and his mom was very upset.. Two days went by and Corey and i went to go check on Tommy. We knocked and knocked but to no avail.. We later found out that Tommy had moved overseas. His dad was in the military and they went to Japan. We never saw him again..There was also Trina and Richard Bowden. Even though i was only about 6 or 7 i had a major crush on Trina..And Richard had a crush on my sister(Amy) so we did what kids do. We chased and chased..lol... So for the next1or 2 years it was us, Trina,Richard, and Corey..Then in the summer of 81 Aven and Charlie moved out to The Coat..Then in the summer of 82 life changed as we knew it.. First there was Willie,Tiff, The,Kim. I think Sandy came a year or two later. Now Whatcoat was the only place on the planet i wanted to be..After a couple of years of all of us growing together, on our way to our teen years..In 1984 my life took another unexpected turn.. My babysitter took my virginity.....To B CONTINUED...Until next time peace n love to all..

This is who i am..

Well let me start by saying that i am 37 years old and i am just now finding out who i really am. And to think all this time i thought that if anyone knew themselves, it was me..I am almost embarassed to say this. I didnt know myself.. When i was doing ok in life, and even when i was at my lowest point , i thought i knew me.I am the oldest of four(with my mom n dad), and i have two sisters and a brother. My sisters are Leslee and Amy. My brother is Darrick..We have a half brother and a half sister( Darlene and Derrick). Poppa was a rolling stone i guess!!lol..We were born in Milford but our house caught fire and we lost everything in 77..So we moved to Louisiana for a few months and then back to Delaware with our grandparents for a few months. Then we moved to Dover in 79. This is the beginning of the Whatcoat era...From 1st grade to 4th grade life was cool.. I had friends,fun and both of my parents..Then i went to the 5th grade and life changed abruptly.......TO B CONTINUED......PEACE N LOVE..UNTIL TOMORROW...GOD WILLING..